I think i must be quite unlucky to some extent bcos the commissioning engineer incharge of the centrifudge is an indian! n the ppl in my team consists of all non-chinese, 3 including tt engineer are indian (they all came from India), 1 is phillipines and mi being the only chinese.

I am trying not to be racist. But apparently, everyone including the contractors and esp dont like the enginner. Bloody kuku. Its onli my second week, he just throw a whole commissioning test to be operated by myself. When the fact that i havent even been through the proper training of the DCS system and i dont even have my own userid password. When i told him tt, he says its ok. He wants mi to be of the same standard as them by the end of the mth. -_-"""

nvm abt tt.. He being an engineer actually taught the IA students the wrong system flow!!!! I was so skeptical abt his knowledge n abilities la.. Cindy, one of the IA students, came and asked if the flow diagram she drawn as right. One look i knew it was wrong. I mean, common sense tells u that the product have to go thru the centrifudge before going into the dryer ma. Why the heck would u send one whole mixture of mother-liquid and the crystals into the dryer before separation in the centrifudge?!! so dotz..

I decided that i should pick up everything by myself, be it that i have look up for info myself, i will do it rather than ask tt engineer. Sorry for ranting on such issues but it just makes mi wonder how did he get into tt seat.

Anyway, Wed after work, i went to meet up wif agnes n pu at orchard. Irritating both went for some durian puff session before i came. lol.. Lucky the smell was no longer in their mouth. Had dinner at food republic then we headed to BigO for some cakes session. Crazy photo taking began. n then its the snatching of cakes, actualli i was the one whu started it. lol.

Thursday i was supposed to meet up wif zhen for dinner but in the end i went to look for my darling cos she was supposed to meet up wif shirun too. (tt Lucas Chan wants mi to call him darling cos he feels that the term "dear" wasnt sincere enough -_-"") I couldnt do tt in real life so in blog, that would do. Haha. We went to have dinner then went back to slp.. zzzz

Friday, after work, i went home, had dinner wif my mama.. slack n watch some tv wif her before rushing out to meet my ex-colleagues at JE. Mi, Bec, Chua, Birdie, Ah Hock, Uncle Ken n his wife went for ktv sessions. Rebec updated mi on wats going-on in Fobas. No though i have left tt place, but unknowingly, when i heard of wat they had been thru, i just felt a sharp pain la. I dont know why i feel this way. I still cant believe ah chong did tt. n I think Jane must have been really hurt. I just feel so sad for them. haiz..

After ktv, i went down to st james to meet up wif the usual ppl as Zijian's gonna go back Aust on Sunday. ok, some unhappy things happened there. Shall not mention. n some things left mi feeling speechless, not knowing how to react. Anyway, music was alright. Lucas came afterwards, fully drunk, doing silly things. I had a hard time getting him back home. He vomitted and started to ko on the floor without washing up. I had to drag him up n force him to take a shower. I was quite frustrated bcos its realli difficult to take care of him when he is drunk. But being a nice gf, i decided to get him settled down first before i wash up. lol! i ko immediately.

Today was supposed to go east coast wif the girls, but i gave tt up. Bcos he was feeling not good. Wanted to go down town to meet up wif elaine and charlene but couldnt too. Cos he doesnt want to go anywhere today, so i just stayed at home keeping him company.

I need more slp!! lol.. i am tired!!

These few days at work are just SOP readings n traingings. I being someone who cant sit still began loithering around the plant side myself. Haha. Work was relatively relaxing. Of cos, thats becos i am a new-comer. Things wif him now are smooth-sailing, which i am glad. =) n Rebecca Lie Ya Ting finally msg mi, i tot she forgotten abt mi already! haha.. I was quite sad when i received Eve's n Kc's msg but not hers!!! Irritating girl, always busy wif tt doctor!! haha..

n i just read one of my fren's blog.. it just suddenly brought to my attention that i am facing the same thing..

I know i have changed since the very day i stepped out into the working society. In a bad way, mayb. But as some of my frens suggest i am no longer as cute as i used to be, no longer as approachable as i used to be, no longer as friendly as i used to be. All in all, in simple terms, i have grown up, sadly.

Its really not so anticipating as wat i tot when i am a small kid.

n during my days at ITS, i really can see why a bad job could result in a change of human's character. It happened on me. n I know who are those who stood by me. I know in my heart, although u ppl dont show it out, but u really care. Of cos there were those who just stood by n say things behind my back. I dont blame them, bcos ya, mayb they just cant tell mi straight in the face.
So i really do appreciate all those who came n talk to me. =) bcos for those whu know mi well enough, they know i appreciate honest friendships.

I can only say i have tried but i think it cant work out, so i will just stop here for the time being.
Somehow, i realised, how come everyone's being given a second chance, except mi. Friendship is also just like a r/s, it takes both hands to clap, it cant be always mi wanting to spend some quality time wif the other party n yet the other party just wait for mi to do sth.

I am taking things easy now. No, i am not angry, mayb a little disappointed. But thats ok, things will get better some day, i hope.

I went to my new company on monday! n till now, i am just so satisfied with my company. Its so welfare can! and my department ppl are so nice lo.. seriously, u cant find anyone that is hostile or unfriendly. I am so fortunate.

I report to work at 8 in the morning. So normally my team would do some read-up or paper work till 9. Afterwhich, we go up to the plant. They performing the OCT while me bein new, do the lines tracing. Then till 1130, its lunch break, all the way till 1. Up the plant we go, till 3 its break time. Then some reading of SOPs, and its 5 ! Time to go home.

So u see. Life is pretty much good there. They have alot of welfare activities for u. Sports, yoga, blah blah blah. Goodddiieee.. haha..

One thing i like abt the company is the toilets! haha.. the toilets are like 3 to 4 times much bigger than those at ITS. They have a section for toilet, a section for bathing and a section for changing plus our lockers. n their lockers are 3 times bigger than wat i used to have. =) n the best part is that they have laundry services! Everday, the auntie would come collect the dirty PPE and after washing, she would stack them all at the clothing shelves. Each PPE, T-shirt, Polo-tees and towels are all personalised. All of them have our name on it. So ppl wont mistaken take yours.

Love it! haha..

ok.. i am generally happy with my job now. Things betw me and him are ok. I spent the last weekend with him. Initially, he was supposed to help out with his fren in moving house. But, in the end, he just didnt. He fly their aeroplane, just for mi! I am a happy girrl.. I think i deserve to be whack la.. just a little thing can make mi happy. -_- ok on a slight note, i still miss my colleagues at ITS especially Rebecca Lie Ya Ting! =))

Counting down to fri..

Its the last day in tt hell place.. yahooO!!

A quick update of wat happened over the last weekend..



The whole of sat was spent with pupu n agnes. Supposed to go into sentosa BUT it was raining, so sad.. so i went down to vivo to look for them for some shopping session. Bought a bag and then headed home to rest awhile before going down town to meet them again. This time for transformers!! It's a super brillant show. The graphics are nice, i give them 5 stars! After which, we head down to zouk to look for karin and yenling. The main hall turn out to be spinning trance music so we went down to st james instead. Hq came down to look for us after wards. That night sucks cos the music is too slow. Totally no mood to dance plus i had a bad tummy ache so we went home early. And the best part, i slip and fell, i strained my toe.



Saturday, he contacted me. Talked awhile on the phone, meeting him on sunday before the dinner.



Sunday, my toe was hurting like hell, still i chose to ignore it. Met up wif zhen at holland to buy a cake for part time. After which, was dinner. Quite a number turned up, part time, mi, him, lz, zhen, charl, hc, wee, beng, rh, cindy, jr, veron, spenc, stef. After dinner, was ktv at clementi partyworld. Me and lz decided to leave early. He wanted to send mi to the bus stop. So we talked on the way there and in the end, he said he just cant bear to have this cold war and ignore mi. No doubt i was delighted that he said that, still i am skeptical that the same old thing might happen again. But i rem that rh once told me, if i really know wat i want, i should try to resolve the issues betw mi and him. Break-up is just another way of saying u dont wanna try anymore or that there's no more feelings involved.



He wants me to control his clubbing ways and his finances. Seriously, i dont know how to do so. But i will try.



Monday, work as usual. There's nothing for me to do as i am onli guiding Gary to do ashing and elements. So i monitored him the whole day and taught him all the short cuts that i used. Explained to him how to look for any errors in the icp calibration and of cos the specifications of our samples. I went home at 5! The first time i ever went home at 5 on a monday ever since i started shift.. Went for dinner with Terence at west mall, Sakae.. yummi.. After which he sent me home.



Tuesday, Rebec's sick.. n Edwen's not coming. Was relatively busy but still managable. Of cos off at 5 also.. hehe.. Today i am off at 5 too! so very happy.. hehe..

we didnt meet each other all the way till tuesday..

I was quite angry that he didnt do wat he promised.. he said he would meet mi before i go to work as he was having half day.. ya well, he didnt.. msg not replied, phonecalls not picked up.. i was worried sick.. The moment i reached my work place, he called. He wants me to go over after my work to tok things out.. Meow scolded me sayin that i give in too much, i should play hard to get.. I dont know.. mayb i just want to know wat is he thinking abt..

n so after my work we talked below his block.. he was thinking exactly the same thing as me.. whether to let go or continue.. his reason being, he dont know why he keeps repeating the same mistake, n he dont want to have another round of serious argument wif mi.. n mi, i am tired of arguing and i just feel he isnt willing to give his all in this r/s..

in the end, no conclusion was made as we both needed to think more.. and so now i am not contacting him, vice versa.. i am still thinking.. no answers yet.. just seeing if i can survive without him.. if i can, i am letting go.. He knows he has changed alot since we started out.. n i dont like the him now.. he knows he still wants to go out n have fun.. I will just let him do tt..

one more week to my new job.. i am excited. but sad at the same time, cos i know i will be leaving my goodie colleagues soon.. really gonna miss them so.. well, kc resigned and ytd yanni said she's gonna resigned today.. seriously wonder wats gonna happen then.. Rebec pls take care..

I am on afternoon shift again..

quite sian, but in 2 more weeks i will be done n over with it! yeay..
spent the whole sat with agnes.. morning was sentosa.. I was pretty tired due to the lack of sleep the past week.. I guess it really affected me quite alot.. The fact that we are like strangers really kind of kills me..

Sentosa was great.. relacing n all.. took my mind of him. period.. I had to return home for dinner while she had to meet up wif her fren for a movie.. so i got home rest. sat in my bed thinking abt everything.. I am trying to get an answer for myself, whether is it bcos of a moment's anger or is it that i am really tired. lots of msg sent out but no reply, makes me quite mad.

Anyway, i took a cab down to orchard to pick agnes up and off we go phuture! n since the music there isnt realli nice, we hop by zouk to take look since we both havent been to zouk on sat nights.. It was a blast la.. I missed Momo.. both of us totalli enjoyed ourselves.. in the midst of it, something unpleasant happened.. Hq came down to look for us then send us back..

Sunday was supposed to acc my mom to the temple but i woke up too late.. lol.. I stayed at home the whole day, i start to space out for no reason. night time rh called n told me abt wat happened.. how come it seems that all the couples around me are facing difficulties now.. makes me feel really negative..

well, he said he will call after the saf day, but he didnt.. I knew it.. He always dont keep up to the promises he made to me.. Mayb i have came up wif a decision.. just not sure if my heart will also follow the decision.